Thesis

It's been a bit while since I last posted.. Thanks to our thesis for keeping me busy all week..

Thesis.. Oh dear.. It gets all the free time out of a student.. It makes a student sleepless.. It doesn't leave a student's mind.. It can even make a student forget his/her other priorities.. You think about it every day, every minute and every second.. Always wondering if it will be approved already.. It'd be a lot easier if your dear thesis adviser helps you in accomplishing your thesis..

Well think about it, this is just a thesis proposal.. It's not even the real thing yet.. But then, we are already starting to get crazy because of it.. My classmates are even luckier for having helpful advisers.. While me and my partner? It's like we're doing it by ourselves..

Here's our routine:

1. Research, read and study about our topic.
2. Write the paper and print it.
3. Submit our paper to our adviser for checking.
4. Get the paper from our adviser after she checks it.

Guess what we will see after we get our papers back.. REVISIONS!!!!! And not just minor revisions.. T_T The worst part is that, she approves one part then after the revised paper, she's asking to revise it again.. T_T We couldn't even consult her.. Always missing in action.. T_T

Oh well.. We just have to cope with since she'll be our adviser 'til the end of our thesis.. T_T

Better go now.. Till next post.. ^_^

HUB Family

Boy, I am so lucky to be part of this section.. Everyone is so great and fun to be with.. What a great bonding and friendship we have.. I am just so happy that I am a part of this section..

But you know what, sometimes, I feel I haven't contributed much to this family.. I feel bad because I feel that I am not doing what I am supposed to do.. Sometimes, I don't even feel my own presence and existence.. I don't know what makes me feel like this but I just feel it.. And I don't even know where it is coming from.. The feeling of being unknown, unseen and unfelt.. I feel that sometimes..

Though I feel this, I don't and will never blame my HUB family for this.. They are like my second family already.. I have never been attached to my classmates and friends as much as this.. HUB is and will always be a part of me wherever I go.. I probably am not much important to this section but they will always be important to me.. I may be forgotten someday but I will never ever forget my HUB family..

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! ^_^

Heart to Heart

I believe that all of us will fall in love.. No matter how hard we try not to fall in love, it just comes unexpectedly.. Love is truly mysterious..

When one is in love, the person becomes very inspired.. That is really true as I speak based from my experience.. I think that first love is the sweetest and yet the saddest if you don't end up with your first love.. First love comes to teach us how to be stronger and braver..

What do you do when your loved one doesn't love you back? Cry? Lock yourself inside your room? Eat alot? Become depressed? Busy yourself with other things? Whatever ways you do to move on, it won't come easily.. Moving on is a long process.. It takes a very long time.. Some might even take more than one year.. In my case, it took me a year to move on from my first love.. It is really very sad..

But I think what's more sad is when you find the person who will really help you move on and yet hurt you again.. Yes.. That is what's happening to me.. T_T

That certain person knows all about your feelings and yet ignores it like a dirt.. Then again, that person will act like he/she cares at all.. What the heck..

Anyway, whatever our experiences with love are, we just have to enjoy the feeling of being in love..

New Year's Resolution

It's 2009! A whole new year! Yipee! With New Year comes New Year's Resolution.. Have you made your own New Year's Resolution? Hahahaha!!!

I myself haven't decided yet on my own New Year's Resolution.. Well, definitely, it'd be something that will make me a better person.. I'm starting with becoming a bit girlier.. Hahahaha!!! All my life, I never behaved like a real girl.. From the way I dress to the my actions.. Well, I think that now I'm turning 19 (Phew!!! Time really does fly!!!), I better start behaving like a real girl..

I started with my hair.. The next transformation is the way I dress.. Probably I'd be dressing more like a girl from now on.. Hahahaha!!!

I still haven't decided on other things.. I'll just post again if ever I have a definite resolution already.. Bye for now.. Hahahaha!!! =)

True Friends

True friends are really hard to find.. When you think you've found them, you'll discover that they're not.. When you've shared almost everything to them, you'll learn that they never trust you at all.. How can you call them your true friends? T_T

I have alot of friends.. I am very friendly.. I get easily attached and very trusting to them, not even thinking if they are true friends at all.. It hurts so much to learn that despite everything that you did for them, they are not your true friends at all..

Why should these people whom you have trusted so much stab you behind your back and hurt you so much? Isn't it unfair? T_T

All those times, I've done nothing for them to treat me badly and hurt me.. WHY? T_T

Jealousy.. Yes.. That's one main factor that destroys people.. I've never been jealous to them.. So why should be jealous to me? I have a point, don't I?

Smile.. That's the only thing that I can do.. Smile back to them despite everything that they are doing to me.. Smile.. I have not yet forgotten our friendship.. I still treasure and love them.. Yes.. Am I stupid or what? That's how I am.. No matter what they do, I will still call them my friends though probably they are not really my true friends..

Someday, I know I'll find those people who would accept me wholeheartedly, without jealousy.. ^_^